Throughout this process, of finding out who I am, and what I really want to do, has taken a lot of honesty. I have had to get honest with myself, which takes a lot of soul searching, journalling and reaching out for guidance. It’s hard, and sometimes it’s painful. It’s also really hard when people get really honest with you, and it’s hard when you realise you’ve wasted a lot of years. But I had put myself in the position I am in due to decisions I have made, and I am in control to make decisions to change.